About me (part I)

Here I am talking bout lots of stuff but myself.
Then i saw a facebook "note", sounds almost like the 90's, this sort of game were you write 25 random things about yourself, and i thought it could be a good idea, or not, don't care anyway.
25 seems too much, so i'm gonna go with 10, at least to get started.

1. i'm a vegetarian.
2. got two cats.
3. bisexual.
4. smoke a lot.
5. i read a novel or two per week in the bus-work/bus-home.
6. lot's of music-guilty-pleasures i'm not ashamed of.
7. i'm an old-shool-hopeless-romantic.
8. but single.
9. also a tattoo addict.
10. and i love purple.

A hole new different crush.

So here's a hole new diferent crush.
At first it seems like the office cliche, but then i realized it's nothing like that.
I'm sort of his supperior, but he's 26 years older than me. He's not beautiful, not the smartest person i know, we have absolutely nothing in common.. but still, he shows up at my office and i just want to take off his pants with my mouth.
I have no idea if he even thought about me that way. He made jokes about it, but then, like a gilr in her period, he becomes all cyclotimic and acts like he didn't see me.

A week ago, i actually had to go near his place, so i ask him for a ride. We get in his car and all the porn with stories i ever saw went trhough my mind in ten seconds, but we both been polite and growups. We talk about his kid (who is sixteen, what te fuck am i doing??), about my smoking and how i don't wanna quit even i know i would die of cancer, about work, about music in the radio and how we love the 80's, about how we both drink light coke, stupid things to not talk about the giant pink sex elephant.
When he left me, he asked for coffee 'cause i have to wait some time, but i declined it (again, why? seriously). And it was it.

I know i can't fuck anyone from work, and maybe that's the only reason i want him so bad.
I know we can both get fired, i know i wont ever love him, it's just a crush, I hate those kind of crushes, make me feel a fifteen-year-old. It's the kind of crush that wont stop until it happens.

I'd totally fuck Tyron.

so i'm sitting there on the floor, dressed as mia wallace after de od, and wondering why in hell i organized a halloween party in wich everyone came by two. four couples and me.
it was fun, i cooked spooky-shape-food all day for it.
but then i'm just sitting there, talking about a fuck-marry-kill that brought a heavy discussion about Tyron from GOT. i'd totally fuck Tyron.
i mean, i'm hot. why am i the dateless girl in my own halloween party?
it's not only that i'm hot, i'm also funny with a real-cool-personality ('cause i was fat as a child and you know). i know a lot 'bout music and films, i used to work in the film industry, got great anecdotes.. i'm outgoing, love animals, love to party but also a very family-person.. just don't get it.
half the people in the party (who i love and are my friends) have terrible personalities.
i'm not evet that picky.

so about 4am i returned home to my cats, all covered in fake blood. i should have cleaned it before throwing myself into bed. damn.

and then there's her.

seems like she wants me only when i'm falling for someone els.
keeps saying how she likes broken girls, but then gets attracted to the happy-in-love-ish ones.

and me. i love her, and hate her sometimes, but mostly not.
she's like a twin to my soul, but a really hot twin.
we understand each other by just looking, we fight once a year, and then just forget why, and cry and say stupid things and hug.
sometimes i feel like we're an old married couple, with all the love and none the sex.
that's when i remember how badly i want to fuck her.